Donnerstag, 21. August 2014

my scale

There are a few heartaches that ice cream cannot fix but that is what we have tears for they will wash everything away. There are days when I open my hands to help and end up with bruises; days when I try to fly and the people I want to save are the ones standing on my cape; there are days when I get in trouble for telling the truth. But these are the days when I have even more reason to say I love. Because there is nothing more beautiful than the way the ocean refuses to stop kissing the shoreline, no matter how many times it is sent away.

I know that on a scale from one to over-trusting, I am to damn naive. But I want you to know that this life is made out of sugar. It crumbles easily, but do not be afraid to taste it again because it will still taste sweet. I am a worrier and a warrior, but I am also the girl with small hands and big eyes who will never stop asking for more. I will always apologize when I have done wrong, but I will never apologize for the way my heart refuses to stop loving. And when I get another heartache, and you slip war and hate under my door and offer me only handouts on street-corners of cynicism and defeat, I will tell you again how much I love you.
21 x

Dienstag, 19. August 2014

Between the lines

Only a few of my friends are aware that I am a natural on body language: I pick up on emotional cues like crazy. Additionally, I can read between the lines like no one else, especially if I know a person. I can tell by their tone of voice or the way they move their body how they really feel. There is no hiding your true emotions around me. However, I would never throw you under the bus. I pick up on the smallest details, for instance, when people mirror my language, spoken or written, to try to connect with me. Men do that a lot, mostly unconscious, you did it too, but you knew what you were doing. This may sound arrogant, but I am aware that my EQ is much higher than most people’s.

Reading this you now understand that I am able to tell if it was you who wrote me or your significant other. I noticed you mirrored my language, I guess to help created a bond? Like you needed that I liked you for who you are.

It is obvious to me that you pretend to be in a happy relationship, but you are not! I don’t know why, but I am one hundred percent sure you masquerade your true emotions. I am also positive that you motives are honorable. Please don’t misunderstand; I am not saying I am better than you! I hide my real emotions too and pretend everything is alright. Nevertheless, I never deny answers. I recognize someone who has an emotional claim that I am obligated to answer!

After everything went down, I spoke to your significant other and I took all the blame. I understood her need for closure. I acknowledged my part in this mess and I apologized! However, I was never granted an apology, or an explanation. After all you were flirting with me too; this was not a one-way street and you know it!

You remember @Starbucks when you gave me all this advice on how to manipulated people into liking me to advance my career. I was nice when I nodded and pretended that was news to me. The truth is, I liked you and I tried to see the good in your ideas because I knew you meant well; although, I personally would not chose such an approach.
Why pretend to like something to advance in your career with the wrong people? Why not find the people you really share a common interest with? To create real satisfaction!

You used all this fancy lines: “I made a commitment, and I honor my commitments!” That being said, I feel what you didn't say stood out the most! Why am I saying all of this? You know why because often the truth is found in what one doesn't say! In your case, words like love, or caring were missing from your statement.
46 x

Montag, 18. August 2014

Eleven months

I have been seeing you a lot this past month, it use to cheer me up till that one day. The day you looked at me and a quick smile came over your lips, but it was a scornful smile.
I used to like to go downtown because I hoped to see you there, but since the smile incident I fear it. Then the last time we crossed path my heart started beating faster, and I ran from you, afraid to see a scornful smile again.
I feel lost. How could I still have hope after such a long time. All the signs tell me to move on but my heart doesn’t agree with my mind. Your absence from my life is overwhelming at times. Your noble persona left an invisible mark on my life. You never said a bad word to me, but your silence hurts just as much.
54 x

Mittwoch, 13. August 2014

I Apologized For Loving Someone – Never Again!

One can love, love, love but sometimes love is not returned. That is not anyone's fault. To love or not to love is a choice. One chooses to love or chooses not to. This does not mean that one is unworthy of love. People are not idiots, fools, or weak for loving. Rather, people who tell how they feel have courage. Because one chooses to be vulnerable and self-sacrificing; a requirement for love. Therefore, I will never again apologize for loving.
111 x

Samstag, 9. August 2014

Last time I try..

It has been months since you spoke to me! If you don't want to talk to me why the heck are you stalking me? I know you care, and you know I care. Lets meet and talk. Sept 13th at 8PM @Sackets Harbor, Westcott Beach the parking lot.
76 x

Freitag, 14. Juni 2013

Go see the Rain Room @ the MoMA in NYC

If you happen to be in Manhattan these coming days. You should not miss the RAIN ROOM @ MoMA.
You will walk through the rain without getting wet. It is awesome!

666 x

Freitag, 11. Mai 2012

One of my favorit paintings by Edward Hopper


"The long Leg"
1653 x


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